I have had this weird relationship with my blog lately. I've been really enjoying all the peripheral stuff; twitter, facebook, planning blog posts, taking pictures, etc. But, actually sitting down, writing a post, and publishing it? Not so much.
I'm in one of those phases in my life where I have so much going on that it is almost impossible for me to divide it into neat, beautiful blog posts. I really do not want this blog to turn into some angsty vent-fest, but...man. Things are sometimes overwhelming for me. It's not even the bad things that overwhelm me, even a lot of positive changes kinda make me freeze in my tracks and wanna hide under a rock.
So allow me to clear the air and tell you what's really going on. Otherwise, I'll just hide under a rock and not post for like two weeks. Which, I don't want...hopefully you wouldn't either.
We're moving soon. This is a 100% positive change which I have been so excited to share. We're moving to a house, with a yard and the freedom to paint and change things as we wish. I love the neighborhood and the fact that it's an old house with character. We'll be in the new place by December 1st. I am so excited about this. Like crazy-obsessed-excited. You can expect lots of home decor posts in the near future. Eeek!
The Mr. and I have been going through a hard time lately. I feel free to share this because overall, we are so strong. We have been together for eight years and I truly love him more everyday. But, as our lives grow and we become busier, there are more demands placed on both of us.We are so busy, and our dreams keep getting bigger and bigger. Marriage is an ebb and flow. Times have been hard, but we have had to get real and lay it all out. It has been painful at times, but I am honestly so grateful for the hard-earned growth that is taking place. And honestly, I look at my husband and I have never appreciated him more. It is such a gift to share a life with another human being. There is no way I would be the woman I am without him by my side.
I'm not loving school right now. I'm just not. Every class and assignment seems like so much work. I have been doing really, really well in all of my classes except Biology. Mark is like the star student out of 90 people...I'm somewhere in the middle. I feel like such a doof next to him.
I am so intimidated by the art world and even the other artists in my classes. I am growing as an artist and sometimes I can't believe that I produced something that I did, but usually, I just feel like an imposter. Sigh.
I went to Target today and almost lost my shiz because they had tons of Missoni stuff that would have fit Maggie. And then I almost really lost it when I spied a pair of size 9 rain boots that would have perfect for me. And then I realized the nine was a six upside down. *Insert expletive here*
There's more to talk about but I'm tired and have to get up for school in about six hours. I'll share more soon.