Monday, October 30, 2006
Sorry, I disappeared!
So, I haven't blogged for over a week. It has been a hard week at times, and sometimes you don't feel like blogging hard stuff, ya know? But, I have emerged from the week stronger and better. Life has really been changing for me. I can't believe all the healing God has done in me in the past months. He has really brought up so many issues and it was so hard to cry out for help at first. But, as soon as I went to my cell group leader and said "I need help" and I admitted things to myself, He started to heal me. I am always amazed by the power of forgiveness, and the amazing benefits you receive when you forgive. Unforgiveness really holds you in bondage, and you're really destroying yourself when you won't forgive. And sometimes, you have to forgive yourself. You have to realize that The Lord forgives and forgets totally and completely. I have been working hard, and the Holy Spirit has been working hard, too. So, life has been getting better and better. Mark and I feel like our marriage has just totally grown and changed in these last four months. Have I really only been married four months? Have I really only been with Mark for 3 1/2 years? I feel like we have dealt with issues that some couples carry around forever, all by the Grace of God. God has transformed us from a broken, rejected, angry couple who lived and breathed sin, into a joyous, healed, passionately in love couple that live and breathe Jesus. I have an amazing husband who is a man to be admired. I am so incredibly proud of him and so blessed to be his wife. He is so smart, and is always the one that knows the answer to questions that no one else can answer. He works so hard, and is an outstanding employee. He doesn't complain about his job, and kisses me goodbye while I sleep every morning. Every evening when he comes home, he has a huge smile on his face and says "I missed you so much! I thought about you all day." He makes me feel like I am the most beautiful, intelligent, funny and perfect woman. He has a strong desire to support me and our future family, and fully accepts the responsibility of being the Head of our household. He loves me so completely and is absolutely my best friend besides Jesus. We laugh all the time. Like ALL THE TIME. Best of all, he LOVES Jesus and has such a strong faith. He always calms me down and puts things in perspective. He is quick to forgive me and slow to say a harsh word to me. Our home is filled with joy and praise and so much love. I am so thankful for the life God has blessed me with. Sorry, didn't mean to gush. I am just so happy!